Weights are growing

The race is well engaged - completed the first turn - and the outside turn - a while back...

I can be so divided

many self creations and importances to manage
a growing family 

now adding the failing health of friends

the reality of timed mortality

anticipated, almost planned loss

all making me more thoughtful
of my mother's comment as she lived through her 80s

'You feel things will just go on - but they don't...'

The weight baring seems to be growing

....like the myth of St Christopher...

I'm running...

Still rounding the far turn...

But perhaps I'm into the final turn...

Or maybe down the stretch...

When will I make the next move?

Thomas Merton said:
In the end
the only thing that saves us
is our relationships...